This blog was started almost a year ago to help me express feelings that I could not other wise get out at the time.
I was in a position where I was in great anguish, and could not afford a shrink or a pill.
Sooo the realm of the blogsphere has become my outlet.
Some people expressed their alarm at how angry I sounded.
Yes, that is part of the journey I have taken.
But so was excitement for a new adventure. Wonderment at a new city life I have experienced. Gratefulness for the friends and family that showed so much mercy for me by listening to my woes. Great sadness at the end of love. Fear of the unknown. Despair at losing my world.
And now at last…
Happiness.
Happiness that I am returning to where my heart has lived these past 23 years since I left.
No, really 28 years, since I first saw her.
I think I always knew that someday I would live here again
I am about to embark on a new adventure, alone, to live and work in Hawaii.
It is a dream come true.
After the last 3 years it was really hard for me to accept that a new life was possible without pain and stress and anger.
But it is like the calm after a huge storm, and a blue sky appears with a nice breeze.
Having been offered a job, and security there, the company is flying me out in January right after my birthday.
It seems fitting that my new life starts at the beginning of a new promising year.
Good bye 2011!
It started and ended with sadness. But the new year is banishing all that.
And so for this blog there will be no more anger or bitterness. I deleted some posts that I made which were beneath me. I am not that person who wishes others bad.
It shows just what a demon anger is.
I prefer to go towards the light. I will forgive, and maybe one day forget.
That is one thing for the islands. You find it so easy to forget there. And just existing there brings happiness.
p.s. keep watching for photos to come
