End of an Era

I received divorce papers last week.

When someone tell’s you time heals all wounds, they are so right. If this happened last year, I would have been so broken. But today, although really sad, I know that I will not only survive I will thrive.

You cant spend close to 20 yrs with someone and not miss them.
I have weathered the storm, and am loosing the anger, moving forward in forgiveness.

Without that my future would be scarred.

This is due to making myself change. Moving away was the first step.
This journey was to heal, and find my destiny.

Well, it looks like that is in California. In Carmel, on the Monterey coast.

Wow!

Since I arrived here I have been looking for the right spot for Dylan and me.

First I thought San Diego. It is beautiful, great weather, very artsy. Somehow I didn’t feel it.
I couldn’t SEE myself there. At least right now.

Then Santa Monica, Beverly Hills, Hollywood area.
I REALLY love Santa Monica.
But again I didn’t see my life there. I looked for a job there, and could easily have gotten one, but for what I would pay in rent it would be tough for a while. It has great weather, the beach and lot’s going on.
My job is commission and I would be struggling for a while, as there are so many hair stylist there.

So I am going to try Carmel and the area around there.

I believe in signs. And I have to say this seems to me to be a great sign that I have arrived at the place that God wanted me to be.

And for the first time in 3 years, I am happy.

So for all those that read this blog, that are going through a bad time.
Just let go.
All of those things that we are afraid to loose, all of the pain from divorce and having your life turned upside down, just let the spirit lead you.

Because you can not do it alone.

What are the chances that I would leave my life, drive out west [having never been here before].
Find a great job [in this bad economy] already have friends here and make new friends and be offered a safe place to live with my best friend Dylan [my border collie]?

Last year I could not get out of bed because the pain was too much.
The massive debt and struggle to hold on to my home and business were devastating.
It all made me sick. To the point I almost died. I couldn’t eat for a month. I lost 20 lb.’s.

But it was not my time yet. God has other plans for me. And I guess it is in California!

So now although I am sad that my marriage is over, I look forward to my future.
And it looks better than ever.

Thanks to all of my friends and family that have given me their support and love.
But most of all I give thanks to God for giving me the strength to make this happen.